Its never easy to say goodbye, and to express my sincere and utter heartbreak that I feel in this moment is hard as well. I got the news this morning before I was even out of bed, that my Aunt Mary had lost her battle with cancer. And it shook me. For weeks now, my mind's been saying over and over...all the time, just like a song stuck in my head "Life is short, but sweet for certain".....over and over and over again it played in my head, in my mind, I thought perhaps that "I" was dying, and my brain was telling me to enjoy every moment I have left, but perhaps it wasn't about me (as so many times we think it's about us)....
With a heavy heart I just wanted to write a little something....I'm sure I'll write something better later, but right now, all I can muster is a nice video, and much sadness and loss.
Prayers to my cousins Sue and Keith who have lost their mother, prayers to my Uncle Floyd who lost his redheaded partner in life....(and everyone knows, red headed partners are more fun than a bucket of monkeys!)....and to the grandkids and brothers and sisters....today, we are all in mourning.
Aunt Mary, I have always and will always love you with all of my earthly capacity. There's no way you're not in heaven with my grandpa Rollie, David Hendricks my friend from high school, Travis Tippie, the boy I used to make out with while I babysat for my cousin Terrie's kids, my Grandpa Red, Mary's Dad, my Aunt Deb Blockberger, Uncle "Slick" Mueller....and to all of those who have gone before.....which by the way Aunt Mary, I personally asked Travis to look out for you up there....and if I know him, and I'm pretty sure I do, there's no way he's not at the front of the line to greet you.....with that really big grin of his....
I can just close my eyes and see the two of you smiling at each other now.
Can't you see it too? Heaven just got warmer....brighter.....happier with these two together.
No matter how sad the loss here on earth, I know that she's in darn good company where she's at. A place where cancer has no place....
Bodies die, souls live on....I have to believe that....that from the ashes we rise.....and we live on forever through those who love us, through the memories we leave...and in the end, with God, who I believe created us to be mortal, so eventually, we'd all come home to him.
As for you, CANCER, I just want you to know you suck, and someday, someONE is going to defeat you, and then you'll know how this feels. Your number will eventually be up.....KNOW that.
Heartbroken and in Mourning,
And missing my Lovely Red Headed Aunt,